I just got back from an amazing weekend in Miami and literally came home to a nightmare. It's so crazy how things can change so suddenly. One minute you're high up and then the next you're back down again. I think I briefly mentioned that things have been somewhat rough with Kiko over the last few weeks. He's been in and out of the vet and animal hospital because of sudden pain in his neck. We found out that he has chronic disk disease, which is basically a herniated disk. It literally came out of nowhere and we have no idea how this even happened. With medication and being confined, I thought that things were slowly getting better. My mom watched him all weekend for me and said he was perfect. I thought we were almost in the clear. I was seriously just looking forward to coming home and cuddling up in bed with him. That's all. Instead I got something completely different.
Since I have to prevent him from going up and down the stairs and jumping on and off furniture, I carry him everywhere. I was carrying him into my room when all of a sudden he started crying and yelling from the pain. It was so bad this time that he bit me about 4 different times to the point where his teeth were so clenched that I couldn't get my finger and arm away from him. I know he was not trying to hurt me as he has never bit me in the 5 years that I have had him, but since I was holding him when he felt the pain I think his reaction was to bite me so that I would let him go. It was literally heartbreaking for me to see him this way, as I just felt so helpless. I didn't know what to do. Anyone who has a dog or a pet knows how much they become a part of your family. Kiko really is like my little baby and not being able to do anything for him makes me so sad. He's one of the most important aspects of my life.
I had to rush him back to the animal hospital and decided to keep him there overnight for medical observation to see what the next steps are going to be. I then had to take myself to the ER to get a shot and antibiotic to make sure I don't get any infection from the bites. I am fine, it was just a very scary night and I was shaken up for sure. Financially all of this is happening at the worst time with my sister's baby shower and my trip to Ireland next month. Dogs are not cheap, especially when medical expenses are involved. I don't know how long it is going to take for him to get better and the thought of leaving him for 10 days in November breaks my heart. Things seriously always happen at the same time and right now I am just feeling very overwhelmed and to be honest, a little helpless. I end up blaming myself, even if it's not my fault. I hate this feeling. I wasn't really sure if I wanted to share this or not, but it's just another way of me showing that tons of things happen to me constantly too. I might not always talk about them or post about them on instagram, but that does not mean they are not happening. We all deal with different types of stress in our lives. All we can do is take it day by day.
When I am traveling, I love sharing different aspects of my trip, but I never want it to come across as if I am living this perfect life and always doing amazing things because I am not. We all want to share the highest of highs and the best moments and the best versions of ourselves, but we do not always want to share the lows, the flaws, and the bad times. Everyone is entitled to their privacy and it is up to the individual to decide how much they want others to see. As part of my Life Chats though, I just always want to be honest and share as much as I feel comfortable with. I constantly see on social media people saying how they want someone else's life because it appears to be so perfect. Realistically though, nothing is ever perfect. We are all constantly dealing with our own struggles. This may not be the worst thing to ever happen to me, but it still sucks and it hurts. I will figure it out though and I will get through it. That's all you can do, right?
Please send some positive vibes to my little fur baby. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and for allowing me to continue to share my lows with you all. <3