Sunday, July 28, 2013

Sunday Inspiration



Rancho Cucamonga, CA 
January 2013

 I was sorting through all of the photos on my macbook and came across this one that I took during my LA trip in the beginning of the year.  It still takes my breath away.  The scenery in California is so beautiful and inspiring that it's hard not to be moved.  

For as long as I can remember, one of my dreams has always been to relocate to LA.  My Cali obsession started back in grammar school when I formed a huge celebrity crush on Jonathan Taylor Thomas (HA!) I remember my father telling me that one day he would take me there, but unfortunately I never had the opportunity to experience LA with him.  Well time passed and as I got older that crush faded and my reasons for wanting to live there changed.  I went there for the first time with my sister in April 2010 and I fell completely in love with everything.  I came home and told my parents that even though I hated my job, I wanted them to transfer me out there so I could finally make my dream come true.  I honestly put no thought behind it.  I had no real plan.  I just wanted to take that leap of faith and my parents of course, were not too happy with the idea.  I remember my father getting a little upset with me.  "What if something happens to you out there?  How can I help you from all the way over here?"  That was always his way... he always wanted to be able to help, protect, and take care of me.  After arguing with him for awhile, he finally caved and said that I had his support.  That meant so much to me.

I talked to my job at the time to find out the necessary steps I needed to take in order to relocate.  I was trying to get everything figured out.  A few weeks went by and my father got sick.  He was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and suddenly my entire world stopped.  I remember him saying "I'm sorry I ruined your plans.  You can still go to LA if you want to. I will be fine."  I couldn't believe that in his fragile state, he still wanted to put my dreams first.  I told him I was never going to leave his side and I didn't.  Till the very end, till his last breath, I was right there. 

 It made me realize how important the timing is in our lives and that we don't always get what we want at the exact moment we want it.  I can't even imagine what would have happened if I had moved out to LA and then found out about my father's diagnosis. I would have never forgiven myself. It's so crazy how he was worried that he wouldn't have been able to take care of me if I moved, because the reality was that I would have not been able to take care of him.  I thank God that I was right here in Jersey every single day during those last few months of his life. 

A year after he passed, I went back to LA and tried to make the move once more.  I was really inspired to go after my dreams more than ever and I was still trying to find my way back in life.  This time I had actually found a place to live and I had a plan.  But once again, life had something else in store for me and I realized it still was not the right time.  I've tried to revisit the thought a few other times in the past year and something always happens to keep me here.  An amazing opportunity will present itself and it will require me to be in the NJ/NYC area.  Some of the opportunities have come to life while others fell through and it's left me wondering Will I ever capture this dream?  I know in my heart it is still not the right time for me. 

I just wanted to share this story with all of you because unexpected things, whether good or bad, happen in our lives and we are not always prepared for them. We can plan everything out to happen a certain way but something might occur to change it all completely.  We might have goals and dreams that are taking a little longer than expected to reach, but don't lose faith and don't give up.   I've learned that we aren't always given what we want but we are always given what we need. And just because something might not happen today, it doesn't mean that it's never going to happen.
 The past 3 years of my life (since my father passed) I have witnessed too many "coincidences" in terms of timing.  I've learned to have patience, understanding, and acceptance.  I know that whatever is meant for me in this life is going to happen when it's supposed to.  I think I still have some unfinished business here in Jersey and maybe that's why something always comes in the way.  

Let everything that happens in your life be a lesson.  Try to understand it, accept it and move forward.  Try not to be discouraged and don't spend too much time dwelling on all of the things you wanted but didn't get.  Timing truly is everything.

 
If you took time to read this all, thank you! I hope it inspired you <3

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14 comments:

  1. Awwww!When life deals a hard blow, we just have to remain positive and roll with the punches.Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Exactly! It's not always easy but it is so important to stay positive. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this! <3

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  2. Thanks a ton naty,I can't really tell you why but since this year has started ,my world is being upside down,i feel like all my positive vibes ,good thoughts, are just being a step away from me,no matter how much i try to make up my mind and things ,something just kind of rush in and ruins evrything i fight for ,but every time i see your post,like this one you recently did ,i feel like perhaps my life is'nt too bad,its just the way am thinking, i am sure this time would either go by and i'll learn something inspiring from this...
    I truly wish i've had a friend like you,who could keep me up whenever am low,thank you so much for sharing your story...
    Lots of ,lots of love..
    Dab:-* :-* <3

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    1. You are so welcome love and thank YOU for being such an amazing supporter and coming to my blog every day. I appreciate the love so much. I think we all go through moments where everything seems to fall apart around us and it is so hard at times to stay positive and to stay strong. But let your obstacles and struggles change you for better. Let them make that fire inside you burn a little brighter. I wish you much success with everything that you want out of life! xoxo

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    2. Thank you so so much babe, i really need this alot, am sure i'll become not what i want to but what i need to and should be ....
      Thanks a ton for your support love...
      I really respect you alot..:-*
      Dab<3

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  3. WOW! As I read this, tears started falling from my eyes. I 've never really looked up to anyone, but YOU truly are an inspiration to me. I needed this, because so many things have gone wrong in my life this past year and there's been so many moments when I felt like giving up. I also have a dream to move to Cali, and I hope you get to live out your dream!
    Thank you so much for sharing your story!

    XO,
    Brittany <3

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    1. You have no idea how much that means to me! I am so happy that you were able to relate to my story and that it helped to inspire you. I really want to connect with all of you through not only fashion, but on a deeper level because there is so much more to us all then the clothes that we wear. I hope your dreams come true too, just never give up and stay hungry for it! Much love <3

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  4. Thanks for sharing this post Naty. Your story is so emotional and you really have such an inspiring way with words. Life always hits us at the right times. My fiancé was due to relocate from Ireland to New York the Summer when I met him and I thank god that he had not moved before we got the chance to meet. Six years later are planning our wedding in Ireland which would never have happened had he made the move back then.

    Bec Boop xx
    http://becboopfashionistaworld.blogspot.ie/

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    1. That is so amazing! Congrats on your upcoming wedding love! It makes me so happy to know that you can relate to everything I wrote. Your support means so much to me and I truly appreciate it! xoxo

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  5. Wow. You made me cry a little...or maybe a whole lot.
    Thanks for this post Naty. I needed this.

    -Ashleigh
    http://thepinksocialite.blogspot.com/

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    1. oh wow! I am so happy it moved you. thanks for taking the time to read it all! xoxo

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  6. Love the inspirational post! The fashion industry is so difficult to break into it's always inspiring to see other women keep doing what they love through the trials and tribulations. I'm sorry to hear about your Dad but kudos to you for being so positive about everything and no matter where you live, your doing fabulous keep it up! <3

    Liz
    Indulgera

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