Monday, October 5, 2015

Life Chats

I just got back from an amazing weekend in Miami and literally came home to a nightmare.  It's so crazy how things can change so suddenly.  One minute you're high up and then the next you're back down again.  I think I briefly mentioned that things have been somewhat rough with Kiko over the last few weeks.  He's been in and out of the vet and animal hospital because of sudden pain in his neck.  We found out that he has chronic disk disease, which is basically a herniated disk.  It literally came out of nowhere and we have no idea how this even happened. With medication and being confined, I thought that things were slowly getting better.  My mom watched him all weekend for me and said he was perfect.  I thought we were almost in the clear.  I was seriously just looking forward to coming home and cuddling up in bed with him.  That's all.  Instead I got something completely different.

  Since I have to prevent him from going up and down the stairs and jumping on and off furniture, I carry him everywhere.  I was carrying him into my room when all of a sudden he started crying and yelling from the pain.  It was so bad this time that he bit me about 4 different times to the point where his teeth were so clenched that I couldn't get my finger and arm away from him. I know he was not trying to hurt me as he has never bit me in the 5 years that I have had him, but since I was holding him when he felt the pain I think his reaction was to bite me so that I would let him go.  It was literally heartbreaking for me to see him this way, as I just felt so helpless.  I didn't know what to do.  Anyone who has a dog or a pet knows how much they become a part of your family.  Kiko really is like my little baby and not being able to do anything for him makes me so sad.  He's one of the most important aspects of my life. 

 I had to rush him back to the animal hospital and decided to keep him there overnight for medical observation to see what the next steps are going to be. I then had to take myself to the ER to get a shot and antibiotic to make sure I don't get any infection from the bites.  I am fine, it was just a very scary night and I was shaken up for sure.  Financially all of this is happening at the worst time with my sister's baby shower and my trip to Ireland next month.  Dogs are not cheap, especially when medical expenses are involved.  I don't know how long it is going to take for him to get better and the thought of leaving him for 10 days in November breaks my heart.  Things seriously always happen at the same time and right now I am just feeling very overwhelmed and to be honest, a little helpless.  I end up blaming myself, even if it's not my fault.  I hate this feeling.  I wasn't really sure if I wanted to share this or not, but it's just another way of me showing that tons of things happen to me constantly too.  I might not always talk about them or post about them on instagram, but that does not mean they are not happening.  We all deal with different types of stress in our lives.  All we can do is take it day by day.

When I am traveling, I love sharing different aspects of my trip, but I never want it to come across as if I am living this perfect life and always doing amazing things because I am not.  We all want to share the highest of highs and the best moments and the best versions of ourselves, but we do not always want to share the lows, the flaws, and the bad times.  Everyone is entitled to their privacy and it is up to the individual to decide how much they want others to see.  As part of my Life Chats though, I just always want to be honest and share as much as I feel comfortable with.  I constantly see on social media people saying how they want someone else's life because it appears to be so perfect.  Realistically though, nothing is ever perfect.  We are all constantly dealing with our own struggles.  This may not be the worst thing to ever happen to me, but it still sucks and it hurts.  I will figure it out though and I will get through it.  That's all you can do, right? 

Please send some positive vibes to my little fur baby.  Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and for allowing me to continue to share my lows with you all.  <3 

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Denim Jacket

Black on black with a little bit of leopard and denim just might be one of my new favorite combos! This is my last style post for the week.  I am going to try and get a Life Chats up tomorrow.  I have a last minute trip to Miami this weekend and leave Friday morning.  Can't wait to share more on that! 

Denim Shirt: Nordstrom Rack [similar style] | Top: American Apparel [similar
 Jeans: Paige Denim [similar] | Shoes: Tamar Collection | Bag: Prima Donna [similar] | Hat: Forever21 

My favorite part about fashion is being able to play around with my style and get creative with different pieces.  This denim jacket is actually meant to be a dress.  Initially that is how I wore it when I tried it on, but it was definitely too baggy and big for me.  I could have easily put it back on the rack, but I got this idea to just wear it open as a jacket and I actually love that it's long and loose fitted on me.  I found this when shopping the clear the rack sale at Nordstrom Rack a couple of weeks back and the price was too good to pass it up.  The next time you try something on and it doesn't fit the way it's meant to, see if there might be another way to make it work.  

In terms of the styling for this look, I really liked the idea of pairing the denim and leopard together.  These are both seen as neutrals, at least in my book.  I wanted to make this a bit more chic so I went with black on black and at the last minute decided to add on the hat.  I love the extra vibe that it gave!  The red bag and lip was just a way to make this pop out a little but more.  :) 

  Hope you all are having a lovely week so far. <3 

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Knits, Rips & Fringe

Ponchos have sort of been a new obsession of mine lately.  I never used to wear them much before, but I have grown to love them.  I admit that it took some time to get used to wearing something that has no sleeves!  When we were shooting these photos, I kept laughing with my mom and saying, "But what am I supposed to do with my arms?!" 

Poncho: Charlotte Russe [love this one] | Jeans: Forever21 [black version
 Shoes: Prima Donna [old] | Bag: Apt 9 [similar style] | Sunglasses: ZeroUV [love these]

I think that ponchos are such a great transitional piece, especially this time of the season where the weather over here is still a bit warm.  I feel so seasonally confused in September. Ha!  Sometimes it gets really difficult to figure out what I am going to wear.  I am honestly just so ready for layers and booties every day.  However, I did take advantage of the warmth and decided to go with open toed shoes.  I couldn't resist!

Fringe has been one of my favorite trends for the fall, so when I find a sweater/cardigan/poncho that has that, I am all about it.  It's those extra little details that stand out the most.  I really love this color combo too, especially the way it pops out against these grey skinnies.  By the way, these knee ripped jeans have been on heavy rotation lately!  I am trying to find a similar pair in white.  Seriously can't get enough.  All in all this look was very comfy and cozy, just the way I like it.  

Have a fab Tuesday! <3